Monday, July 18, 2011

Putting this part of MY journey out there....

SO here it is. I knew when I started this blog that I would include this at some point. I wasn't sure when, but knew I had to do this too. I've kinda wanted to do this forever....but not bad enough. I mean, bad enough....but wasn't willing to put the work in. Well I am now. And I'm putting it out there. Which is tough for me....but I also need accountability. 


So why now?? Well, I'm not fully sure. I am sure I will be able to write more over the next year and I am certain there will be many different levels of crud to walk through....it should be fun, right!! But to answer the question as to why now. A few different reasons. First, we were house sitting for our friends for 2 weeks and I literally lost 7lbs from just walking around their house. Then I got extremely sick and lost 4lbs, so 11 total. I just couldn't not do something. I had to continue losing. So now I am more determined than ever. I have 112 more to go....yep 112!! The other reason is I  am gonna be on a webcast here tomorrow night at 6pm PST and again at 8pm PST and although I am completely excited about it.....I'm also afraid and self-conscious and kinda feel weird about people really seeing ME. Then there the 'typical' reasons like I don't wanna be fat anymore. Or I don't want my kids to have a fat mom, or hubby to have a fat wife. I wanna look good and I wanna be healthy. Tired of not shopping for myself. Tired of being the big girl {I was NEVER the big girl until I was an adult} I want to recognize ME when I look at myself in the mirror. I'd also LOVE to share clothes w/ my daughters, mom and sisters.....of course there are many other reasons and these at the moment might sound superficial but its my truth. I do want to be healthy, but surprisingly I am rather healthy at the moment. I don't have high blood pressure or high cholesterol. I was in the ER a few months back for some unexpected pain and all my blood work came back normal and good. But I do have diabetes, heart issues, cancer and digestive issues in my extended family. So, health is on my list....its just not my FIRST reason.  



THE PLAN


I have my goals written down....{never did that before} and I have an end date. I so hope I am able to stay on track. I am concerned about how I will react if not, but again....its about the journey. I also have {awesome} rewards set up for myself at certain intervals.I know the foods I am able to eat {which is also awesome because its regular food that I'd normally eat} and I know the exercises I need/want to do. 


I am excited. I am determined. I am nervous. I have a support system. I know what I need to do and am willing to do it. 






These pictures were taken in January 2011 {probably around the 1st...New Years, ya know} by my oldest daughter as 'before' pictures. I am pretty sure I maybe walked, if that. You know, one of the many attempts that an overweight person makes at finally doing something about it. I actually took them for my blog, to put myself out there, for accountability......
I don't weigh much different now. If anything I *might* be 5lbs less. But I think these are a great BEFORE pictures and I cannot WEIGHT to be able to post my after pictures in a little over a year!! 

STOP PRESS: I CANNOT BELIEVE I JUST PUT FULL BODY PICTURES ON THE INTERNET.

Oh my!!

Off to go drink some more water........

7 comments:

  1. awe im so proud of you. you sound like you have the knowledge, tools, support and the will to obtain this wonderful goal of YOUS. yes your. That's what's so great about this. you r doing something for Alisha which is part of the reason some mothers get onto this situation. putting g everyone else first. goodluck and congrats on making yourself a priority.

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  2. Love this post Alisha! You know that I am SO rooting for you and can't wait to see your progress. Please know that I have been there and am totally here for you when you reach those not so easy times during the process of losing weight. (((HUGS)))

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  3. You are my hero. I am pregnant now but can't wait to pop this baby out so I can start working on this issue too. Good luck. I am rooting for you!!!

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  4. Excited to follow your blogs. I wish you the best of luck!!!

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  5. You are so cute! You should drive up here and do Zumba on my xbox kinect with me!

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  6. Hey sweetie... you know I am right there with you. I was just checking in with you too. Good job with coming out ;) I know it is scary - and I still can't believe I put my picture on the internet either... but - I'm down 17? now.. only 80 more to go here too :)

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